Year 2

I’ve been debating doing this post for awhile now, but I’m just going to bite the bullet here. When this time of the year rolls around, it’s difficult to know what to do or say — how to cope. But, I feel very strongly of letting my dad’s story be heard so that I can help spread awareness and support to anyone who may be struggling. I think it’s so important to vocalize his story and not be scared of any kind of reaction.

Today marks 2 years since my dad took his life. It becomes easy as time goes on to harp on the past/what could have been done. At the end of the day, life goes on, and for me anyway, it’s about picking up the pieces and making a difference — taking advantage of the life I’ve been blessed with on this Earth to try and be good to others.

This year, to commemorate my dad, all I want to do is post out there and give a voice to anyone who may be struggling or can relate to loss by suicide. It’s one of the most surreal ways to lose someone and very difficult to comprehend and know how to cope. Life is a real struggle sometimes and and the demons we carry with us daily can ultimately be our downfall. I know — I’ve been there. But being on the other side of the spectrum, directly affected by having someone I love choose to leave this world– it changes your perspective.

Every single one of us is unique, special, and important. I know that since losing dad, I have become much more aware of my effect on others and vice-versa. And you know what? It’s beautiful how we can make a difference in each other’s lives — how the way we live our lives and touch others brings out the beauty that this world has to offer, in spite of the hardships that may accompany it.

So all I ask this year is this: look in the mirror and see that the person looking back is beautiful, capable of making a difference and being happy! We all matter, and life is worth fighting for, even when it feels hopeless.

STRIVE FOR THE HAPPINESS THAT YOU SO GREATLY DESERVE. If you are hurting or struggling, talk to someone. TALK TO ME! Be aware of your emotions and how you are feeling. Try not to keep feelings inside — the toll is takes can make days a struggle. Take the necessary steps to improve your quality of life.

It’s something I wish my dad could have seen before it was too late. He had so much life left to live, but could not see the worth anymore. Although there is nothing I can do to change my dad’s story, I can make his story part of mine forever. Depression is real, guys, and the effects can be catastrophic. So I just ask that you become in touch with yourself. And be aware of how you treat others. Recognize that this world is a lesser place without you.

Thanks so much if you took the time to read this, and I pray that, if nothing else, it brought on a source of comfort. Love you guys, and love you, dad!